forging a brighter and more beautiful me.
After the cold water, got to wait for a long time.
After each shock, I become stronger.
The hardest is the fight of words,
how I should put on my armour to fight against words.
Really this steel helmet, getting thicker everyday.
At the end, making it hard for me to even stand.
I am hurt in the inside, but as a strong person,
how could I rest.
I have transformed into steel,
but I have never won.
No one would remember at night.
I wanted to be as brittle as ceramic.
The easily broken heart, just like glass.
I become steel, standing still fighting hard.
Becoming the biggest contrast.
If I can be like a normal human,
having the luck to have love,
then I wouldn’t need this steel arm.
If I can be so strong that even lonely got scared,
how many time I have to cry to build this forever body?
I am able to kill off an army troop, but now I realised that my past was like water.
I am so strong that now I couldn’t go back.
Sadly, I felt that I couldn’t control it.
I grew to a point that even I drop I wouldn’t break.
But I am trapped inside my body, no one came, couldn’t get out.
I have transformed into steel, but I have never won.
No one would remember at night. I wanted to be as brittle as ceramic.
The easily broken heart, just like glass.
I become steel, standing still fighting hard.
Becoming the biggest contrast.
If I can be like a normal human, having the luck to have love,
then I wouldn’t need to use this sharp weapon in my hand.
I have become steel, but for who?
I only realise when there is no road ahead.
I wanted to be as brittle as ceramic, so white and flawless,
as beautiful as a flower vase.
I have become steel and everyday I landed in the war field.
No more happiness or sadness on my face.
If I could be in love, slowly.
Let me use the real me to love you.
I will want to live and scare to die.
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