残酷游戏 / 殘酷遊戲 [CRUEL GAME] - Janice Vidal 衛蘭 {Cantonese 09}

Who can exchange determination for feelings?
Who can use castaways to protect a hard-won victory?
How strong are you? You don’t dare accept my feelings.
But even if this is a nightmare, I refuse to wake.
How can I gamble my life for warmth?
How can I be better than her, and yet never enough?
Love is like a fight, depending on who’s in the arena.
No one says good bye, but we know one must leave first.
All my self-inflicted pain is only because I won’t leave,
Unwilling to look away from your love toward the one you love.
If I can use all my strength to capture you,
Then only I am left to rescue myself.
I know that the more I fantasize, the more I don’t think about you, the easier it is to remember.
I purposefully use the bitterness to mask the loneliness.
Use this cruel game to humiliate myself.
Freely and always under your foot.
Being so good to you, I ask for nothing in return.
The sympathy points, you give anyway.
I thought I avoided you, but fate has other plans.
Clearly living easily is better than dying.
I know that the more I fantasize, the more I don’t think about you, the easier it is to remember.
I purposefully use the bitterness to mask the loneliness.
Use this cruel game to humiliate myself.
Freely and always lying to myself.
I know that far away there is someone who loves me,
And that a person’s best off not wanting anything.
I know I was wrong. I want to know and do,
Bury my head in work and let everyone live happily.
All my self-inflicted pain is only because I won’t leave,
Unwilling to look away from your love toward the one you love.
If I can use all my strength to capture you,
Then only I am left to rescue myself.
I know that the more I fantasize, the more I don’t think about you, the easier it is to remember.
I purposefully use the bitterness to mask the loneliness.
Use this cruel game to humiliate myself.
Freely and always under your foot.
If I am cast off, it is only reasonable.
Self-pity, self-oppression, and self-harm makes it only reasonable.

No comments:

Post a Comment